Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Hey Babs....find the nearest exit!

I don’t feel like writing about food today….. I am having a low day and I feel the need to talk about it. I hope you all don’t mind.  I think my Babesia is having a little flare up…I have been doing well since going back on Babs treatment…a gradual and steady decrease in symptoms. Yesterday I felt a little off…and by the afternoon the chest and rib pain was back. That’s always fun….Is it a heart attack or babs? Pretty sure its just those little boogers fighting back and hoping for survival. Throw in the air hunger  by 6pm and the desire to hit the sheets by 8pm and I knew it was cycling. Today…I am in bed feeling like a wet noodle and trying to ignore the chest pain. Oh yeah….and that strange overwhelming urge to cry…yup…its there.

So…is it the worst I have ever been….Nope. Should I be complaining…probably not. I know how much worse it can be….but I get so frustrated. I did not invite this into my body. I did not ask for this. I am adamantly asking Babs to leave. I am tired of dealing with this unwelcome visitor. Please find the nearest exit, Babs, leave and don’t come back.

I don’t feel like putting on the happy face today and pretending I am fine. I plan to sit around with a grumpy face and growl at anyone who expects me to move or be pleasant. I am wearing my cranky pants proudly today…although I promise I will put them away tomorrow. In fact…tomorrow I will make smiley face pancakes for breakfast….but today…I intend to bully Babs a little. I think Babs needs to be reminded that I fight back.


Anonymous said...

I'm right there with ya. Started tx too and rib and chest pain, breathing problems and coughing. Somedays it's ok to down and tell your friends. We understand! Hope you are on the mend soon!

Renee said...

You are not alone in wanting Babs to leave...along with his buddies. Sorry you are having a bad day....